My Birth Story

I’m not going to lie, this is a difficult post to write. I’d dreamt of a perfect natural water birth using all of my hypnobirthing techniques but unfortunately Squish had other plans. This is a long one and I maybe wouldn’t recommend reading if you’re currently pregnant. I really wanted to be honest though as I know lots of women’s births don’t go to ‘plan’!


Welcome to the world

Theodore James


I went for a check up with my consultant the day after my due date to put a plan in place for if Squish didn’t make an appearance and needed some assistance. I had hoped to avoid induction at all costs and wanted to try natural ways to bring on labour. Unfortunately when the consultant scanned me they discovered there was next to no fluid around Squish. The consultant was all for keeping me in hospital and inducing me on the spot. Squish was still kicking away though so I agreed to a sweep and to be booked in for an induction in a weeks time if nothing happened naturally.

Unfortunately within an hour I started bleeding heavily and had to go back up to hospital to get checked out. After some tests they discovered the reason there was no fluid next to Squish was because my waters had gone weeks in advance and I hadn’t noticed! This means that both Squish and I were open to infection. As soon as this was discovered, with a lot of tears I kissed goodbye to my natural birth. I was admitted to labour ward and the doctors wanted me to be induced using a drip straight away. I opted for Squish to be monitored and to get bloods taken to check for infection and if they were clear use a pessary to kick start labour. Squish was monitored for a few hours as the heart rate wouldn’t settle. Thankfully the bloods came back clear so off I went to the induction ward with a pessary to wait and see what happened.

Within 3 hours of settling in the induction ward I started to get strong back pain that soon turned into contractions. I continued to contract every 3 or so minutes for the next 12 hours without any pain relief. I finally dilated to 5cm and was moved to the labour ward. I opted to have Squish monitored every 5 minutes using a Doppler rather than be constantly hooked up to monitors. At 7pm I was allowed to use the birthing pool and I tried out the gas and air incase the contractions got too intense as I progressed. I had a lovely few hours floating about in the pool. I felt 100x better and it really made me relax after the stress of induction. I was checked at 11pm to discover I was still 5cm dilated. This is where things started to go downhill and fast.

I was asked to get out of the pool so they could monitor Squish properly as they wanted me to go on the drip to try and make labour progress faster. I was checked again and the doctor felt a small bag of fluid so burst it. The next second I was in excruciating pain and blood was pouring out of me, Squish’s heart rate completely dropped due to the stress. I was later told I’d had a placenta abruption where the placenta detaches from the uterus and cause bleeding and the baby isn’t able to get the nutrients and oxygen it needs.

I was rushed off down the corridor alone towards surgery, within five minutes of being in theatre I was put to sleep and two minutes later Squish was delivered by emergency c section. It was truly one of the most terrifying experiences of my life. I felt like Squish and I weren’t going to make it!

I took a long time to come round after my section as I’d had a lot of anaesthetic to knock me out fast. When I woke up I was greated by my beautiful, dinky 6lb 7oz baby boy!

We had a long recovery in hospital as I was in a lot of pain but were finally ready to go home on the Friday night.

Little did I know my birth story wasn’t over. A week after leaving hospital we were readmitted as I had a bad womb infection. I was put through more scans and tests before being put on IV antibiotics and fluids. I’ve finally been discharged from hospital now but I’m still in recovery and on lots of antibiotics. Theo has also had quite a few hospital appointments due to some health concerns. We’re both home now though and finally trying to get used to life together.

Theodore James is the most beautiful little boy I have ever set eyes on. We may have had an eventful delivery but I am so grateful we’re both here safe and sound!
If you’ve had a little one did your birth go to plan? If not how did you cope with all the changes and the unknown?


  1. August 29, 2018 / 12:06 pm

    He is so beautiful!!!! Well done ❤️❤️

  2. Erin
    August 29, 2018 / 12:08 pm

    Oh my goodness lovely how terrifying!! 🙁 births can be so traumatic, and it’s so disappointing if you have an ideal in mind and it just doesn’t go to plan. So glad to see both you and squish are okay now though, and that he has a name! So adorable. Just remember your birth is one day, they do not define us or make us, and both you and Theodore are happy and healthy – which is the best outcome imaginable. Wishing you all the best in the world, he is gorgeous!

  3. August 29, 2018 / 12:15 pm

    Congratulations he’s gorgeous! I hope you are recovering from the stress, it sounds a horrible experience, but I hope writing about it is helping you process it. I think you’re amazing to be writing about it already!

  4. August 29, 2018 / 12:27 pm

    He is absolutely gorgeous, congratulations darling. I’m so sorry to hear things didnt go as plan, it can be such a scary, stressful time, but it sounds like you got the best care you could have done. i had plans for a waterbirth too, but when they couldnt find Dougie’s heartbeat i had to get out of the water and broke my waters for me as he was in distress and coming very quickly. i hope you are feeling much better, Theodore Jamea is such a beautiful name and i hope you are all adjusting and recovering well.
    lots of love, Hels xxx

  5. August 29, 2018 / 12:38 pm

    I totally choked up through reading your birthing story and i’m not even a mum. So glad you and Theo are on the way to some normality. Big hugs and heres to your journey of life with your gorgeous little boy xxx

  6. August 29, 2018 / 1:15 pm

    Congratulations! He is so gorgeous and I love the name!
    I haven’t had any children but I’m a keen planner, so I can’t imagine how difficult it must have been to have had all your plans thrown out the window! Glad to hear you’re on the mend now!

    Chloe 💕

  7. August 29, 2018 / 1:20 pm

    I’ve been waiting to hear about Squish! I’m so sorry the labour and delivery didn’t go the way you had hoped but I’m so glad that both of you are safe and well now 🙂 it really does sound absolutely terrifying. He’s absolutely gorgeous and massive congratulations! Hope you can now spend some well-earned time together 🙂 xxx

  8. August 29, 2018 / 1:28 pm

    You had really terrible experience ;-(, but thanks God you and your baby-boy are finally home. Congratulations!

  9. August 29, 2018 / 2:14 pm

    He is such a handsome little boy. Congratulations again on your arrival. Loved reading this blog post💕

  10. Rebecca Phillips
    August 29, 2018 / 4:34 pm

    Oh bless you both – that was scary reading! Glad you are both doing well now. He is beautiful and I love his name! Congrats!

    I was hoping for that lovely natural birth too but I developed severe pre-eclampsia and my son was born at 33 weeks via emergency c-section (straight away after I lost my vision and they told me that the PE was the cause!) my daughter was a bit easier as I was on aspirin due to the PE the first time, as soon as symptoms showed at 39+4,i was induced and had an amazing natural birth with her. Labour never seems to go to plan!

    Congratulations again!

  11. August 29, 2018 / 5:54 pm

    A big congratulations to you but I’m so sorry things didn’t go to plan. It sounds like an incredibly scary experience but like you are both heading in the right direction now, hope all three of you are okay. & Theodore is absolutely gorgeous!! Xxx

    Kristy |

  12. Nikki
    August 29, 2018 / 7:05 pm

    A big congratulations for your beautiful baby boy! What a scary experience to go through and sorry to hear it didn’t go to plan. Hope you are both doing well!! Xxx

  13. August 29, 2018 / 9:40 pm

    Oh my, he is absolutely gorgeous!! Such a terrifying experience lovely, so glad everything went okay in the end and hope you are feeling much better Xx

  14. Jenna
    August 31, 2018 / 2:20 pm

    Congrats on the baby!!! 🙂 <3 This is such an exciting time for you! I am so sorry that you were not able to get your natural birth, but I am so happy that both you and the baby are okay and healthy! Enjoy your first few months as a mom!
    -Jenna <3
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