I’m not going to lie, this is a difficult post to write. I’d dreamt of a perfect natural water birth using all of my hypnobirthing techniques but unfortunately Squish had other plans. This is a long one and I maybe wouldn’t recommend reading if you’re currently pregnant. I really wanted to be honest though as I know lots of women’s births don’t go to ‘plan’!
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I went for a check up with my consultant the day after my due date to put a plan in place for if Squish didn’t make an appearance and needed some assistance. I had hoped to avoid induction at all costs and wanted to try natural ways to bring on labour. Unfortunately when the consultant scanned me they discovered there was next to no fluid around Squish. The consultant was all for keeping me in hospital and inducing me on the spot. Squish was still kicking away though so I agreed to a sweep and to be booked in for an induction in a weeks time if nothing happened naturally.
Unfortunately within an hour I started bleeding heavily and had to go back up to hospital to get checked out. After some tests they discovered the reason there was no fluid next to Squish was because my waters had gone weeks in advance and I hadn’t noticed! This means that both Squish and I were open to infection. As soon as this was discovered, with a lot of tears I kissed goodbye to my natural birth. I was admitted to labour ward and the doctors wanted me to be induced using a drip straight away. I opted for Squish to be monitored and to get bloods taken to check for infection and if they were clear use a pessary to kick start labour. Squish was monitored for a few hours as the heart rate wouldn’t settle. Thankfully the bloods came back clear so off I went to the induction ward with a pessary to wait and see what happened.
Within 3 hours of settling in the induction ward I started to get strong back pain that soon turned into contractions. I continued to contract every 3 or so minutes for the next 12 hours without any pain relief. I finally dilated to 5cm and was moved to the labour ward. I opted to have Squish monitored every 5 minutes using a Doppler rather than be constantly hooked up to monitors. At 7pm I was allowed to use the birthing pool and I tried out the gas and air incase the contractions got too intense as I progressed. I had a lovely few hours floating about in the pool. I felt 100x better and it really made me relax after the stress of induction. I was checked at 11pm to discover I was still 5cm dilated. This is where things started to go downhill and fast.
I was asked to get out of the pool so they could monitor Squish properly as they wanted me to go on the drip to try and make labour progress faster. I was checked again and the doctor felt a small bag of fluid so burst it. The next second I was in excruciating pain and blood was pouring out of me, Squish’s heart rate completely dropped due to the stress. I was later told I’d had a placenta abruption where the placenta detaches from the uterus and cause bleeding and the baby isn’t able to get the nutrients and oxygen it needs.
I was rushed off down the corridor alone towards surgery, within five minutes of being in theatre I was put to sleep and two minutes later Squish was delivered by emergency c section. It was truly one of the most terrifying experiences of my life. I felt like Squish and I weren’t going to make it!
I took a long time to come round after my section as I’d had a lot of anaesthetic to knock me out fast. When I woke up I was greated by my beautiful, dinky 6lb 7oz baby boy!
We had a long recovery in hospital as I was in a lot of pain but were finally ready to go home on the Friday night.
Little did I know my birth story wasn’t over. A week after leaving hospital we were readmitted as I had a bad womb infection. I was put through more scans and tests before being put on IV antibiotics and fluids. I’ve finally been discharged from hospital now but I’m still in recovery and on lots of antibiotics. Theo has also had quite a few hospital appointments due to some health concerns. We’re both home now though and finally trying to get used to life together.